Kevin Costner is speaking about his and Christine’s split for the first time.
“This is a horrible place to be, but this is where we’re at,” the “Yellowstone” alum told Access Hollywood following his child support win on Friday.
“It feels so bad,” the actor, 68, said outside of the courtroom. “We’re talking about somebody I love on the other side. I just can’t.”
When the outlet asked whether Costner “still has love” for his estranged wife, he replied, “Of course.”
The Oscar winner noted that he “wasn’t … laughing” about their divorce proceedings despite cracking a joke on the stand.
Her attorney had accused Costner of making more money than he previously stated, with him quipping, “We’ll have to have a treasure hunt to find it.”
The former couple have since engaged in messy accusations, with Costner even claiming his ex is dating his close friend Josh Connor, whom she vacationed with in July.
She filed a request earlier this week that her ex pay $175,057 in monthly installments for their three kids— Cayden, 16, Hayes, 14, and Grace, 13 — which she later reduced to $161,592.
Costner was ordered to pay only $63,209 per month in child support.
She and Costner got married in September 2004 after five years of dating. She signed a prenuptial agreement at the time, which required her to move out of their family home post-split.
While Costner claimed in June that she was refusing to vacate, a judge upheld the prenup and ordered her out the following month.
She moved to a “smaller home” on their Santa Barbara, Calif., property.
Kevin Costner breaks silence on ‘horrible’ divorce after child support win. Kevin Costner breaks silence on ‘horrible’ divorce after child support win