Sarah Hyland says she was ‘very close’ to taking her own life

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Sarah Hyland opened up about her battle with depression while going through a series of health issues including undergoing two kidney transplants.

The “Modern Family” actress spoke to Ellen Degeneres Friday where she said she struggled with suicidal thoughts after “years of just always being sick.”

“After 26/27 years of just always being sick and being in chronic pain every single day and you don’t know when you’re going to have the next good day, it’s really, really hard,” Hyland told DeGeneres. “I would write letters in my head to loved ones of why I did it and my reasoning behind it, how it was nobody’s fault. I didn’t want to write it down on paper because I didn’t want anybody to find it. That’s how serious I was.”

Hyland, 28, said she was “very, very, very close” to taking her own life.

“It ended up being myself that got me out of that,” the actress shared. “I had to do it on my own. I told myself I had to do it on my own.”