In a new documentary, Michael J. Fox opens up about Parkinson’s disease and how he used alcohol to cope with his diagnosis.
“Still: A Michael J. Fox Movie,” which premiered Friday at Sundance Film Festival, traces the life and career of the beloved “Back to the Future” star, who was diagnosed with the degenerative brain disorder in 1991. But the actor, now 61, hid his health struggles from the public for the next seven years as he grappled privately with denial and depression.
Shooting film and TV projects during that time, Fox says he popped dopamine pills “like Halloween Smarties (candy)” to help stave off early symptoms of the disease. On the set, he also made a point to always hold props in order to hide his tremors.
“Therapeutic value, comfort – none of these were the reason I took these pills. There was only one reason: to hide,” Fox says in the documentary. “I became a virtuoso of manipulating drug intake so that I’d peak at exactly the right time and place.
He was filled with dread about his prognosis, after doctors told him there was no way to win the fight against Parkinson’s. So he turned to drinking to forget.
“I didn’t know what was happening. I didn’t know what was coming. So what if I could just have four glasses of wine and maybe a shot?” Fox says. “I was definitely an alcoholic. But I’ve gone 30 years without having a drink.”
Fox credits his wife, actress Tracy Pollan, and four kids for helping inspire him to get sober. But his first few years without alcohol were a challenge.
“As low as alcohol had brought me, abstinence would bring me lower. I could no longer escape myself,” Fox recalls. So he tried to work and travel as much as possible in the early years of his diagnosis: “You can’t pretend at home that you don’t have Parkinson’s because you’re just there with it. If I’m out in the world, I’m dealing with other people and they don’t know I have it.”